not in the mood for anything at all.... so i gonna stop blogging for a while.. basically, everything's chaotic rite now..


din go for the match today cos i got a call from allen at ard 4.30... when i saw his no. flashing on my phone i knew something isn't quite rite... true enough, vin got into an accident.. and quoting him 'erm he is alrite but it's very serious' .. i was dumbfounded.. so is he alrite or is it very serious????? my tear ducts were unable to hold back anymore of my emotions as tears gushed out from the floodgates.. many tots came to my mind as i tried to imagine how he is.. gruesome images, all bloody and gross.. i saw him lying in a pool of blood surrounded by burnt motor parts and broken metal.. i felt my heart dropped... then i started thinking abt all the times we've spent tog.. happy and sad .. i know i just cant afford to lose this special fren.. wished i was there with him when it happened.. even tho i cant do anything and might even have been the seriously injured one i still wished i was there with him...

i felt my heart beat faster and faster as i step closer and closer to his bed.. wad actually happened to him??? i kept asking myself.. i drew open the curtain only to see a dejected face, looking all so tired and in pain.. once again tears rushed out like a waterfall.. i know im too much of a crybaby but can i help it??? not when i see metals sticking out of his swollen leg and his arm all wrapped up like a mummy's.. hurts me like hell.. really..

anyway the day was better as more and more pple came to visit.. thanks allen for being such a carelessly-sweet pal.. his family came and for the first time since we broke up i saw maeko again..she's grown into such a cute little girl and she nv fail to make his day =) yeah and a lot of frens came .. felt a little awkward actually.. yeah..anyway his injury tho not life threatening, will do great damage to his career cos he was supposed to go for this ata scholarship interview tom.. and of cos he'll have to downgrade for at least a yr.. and i suspect he'll be on the wheels for at least 4-6 months.. i guess this is a painful lesson for him.. and me.. life is reli precious..i hope he get well soon...






hiding his pain behind a smile .. of cos he was feeling much better when i took this..


a broken arm


a broken leg


see i told u guat has a fettish for HELLO KITTYs..heheheeh..


my fav out of the whole lot =) white for purity =)

ITS FINALLY OVER!!! WHAAHAHAA.. yea im free like a bird now.. a little too free i think. which then equates to boredom.. see i knew ill feel like tt even be4 exams end.. i'm so gd.. still wadeva it is im glad im done with the papers.. a statement to sum up this sem : its been a bumpy ride ~

okie now its time to do something abt my fyp which sadly is not even a quarter done.. and also, the coming few days i've got a series of interviews to attend.. much dreaded ones, becos ill need to get my hair done, buy new clothes, shoes blah blah blah etc.. and my cookies jar is running low.. oh yah and i haven reli been to a serious interview b4 so i guess im gg to be pretty nervous.. hai~why cant i just be a tai-tai?????!!!!!!!!!!!!!

yeah anyway today is our D-day.. not only beocs we are have an OSL match tonite, straight after exams, but also becos we are playing BLAZE.. yah BLAZE.. waddehell.. how can we even be in div one???.. its not even a matter of win or lose, its reli a matter of lose by how many goals.. anyway tt aside, im gg to lose my nicely manicured nails......sob.. i realised i nv ever had nice nails for too long.. exam period is the longest time when i can keep my nails i tihnk =(

oh yah went to visit guat at her house on saturday.. she looks good and chirpy eh.. her recovery looks more like a miracle than a speedy one..haha.. walking long distances and even hitting the gym already.. yeah sometimes its reli mind over body i guess =) jia you bah!! yah nice getting tog to play taboo again altho it was more of like the reunion of half the gang =) and cw is 3 hours late!!!! tt girl's full of crap lar, telling us how this guy selling mee hun kuai (wadeva the spelling..) is soooooo ooooo ooooo CUTE.. like tall dark and handsome.. which cld explain her late arrival?? perhaps..hehee.. yeah as usual, taboo is hilarious with janice ard and her classic 'supermodel' and 'via-tay-gen' jokes.. oh yah and guat was so nervous, playing it for the first time since so long ago, tt she gotta confirm the rules of the game again..whahaha... reli enjoyed the game =) hope we wun wait another sem to play again =)

p.s. guat, with all the girly stuff toys in ur room and ur collection of HELLO KITTYs, im really beginning to wonder who's the real 'gu-niang' ard..hahahahaah




today has finally come.. less than 24 hours away from frrrrreeeeedddddoooommmm!!!!!
its 3.24pm now and i cant believe ive slacked half the day away already.. din do much till now which of cos isn't a good thing .. my most feared paper tom and im not doing anything to reduce the fear.. well to put it in 205's context,

process risk = stunned by paper, failing it

risk assessment = high probability, high impact

risk response = acceptance despite not within my risk appetite.. becos cost
benefit analysis shows that my unwillingness to read
anymore of the crap outweighs the benefit of me passing the
paper..

internal control = exactly wad im doing now.. blogging.. hai~

okie lemme think of wad im gg to do tom after the paper..

1. sleep
2. sleep
3. sleep
4. sleep
5. sleep..... and the list goes on.. whaahaa..

and these're wad i need... hehe in increasing order of importance =)

1. haircut /colour / treatment/ rebond?? perm???
2. mani & pedi
3. facial?? maybe.. hmmm maybe not.. dunno
4. SHOPPING.. definitely
5. home
6. hangout
7. training?? not sure..a little too enthu to go str after exams rite, then again, i haven been there for more than a month..how??..hmm think abt it..
8. you..

so near yet so far................. hate it!!!!!!

okie janice if u are reading =) i miss everyone too..

i think im getting used to this.. wake up, wash up, stone for an hour or so.. then open up my book and start highlighting.. well today is the second last day im gg to do this this sem.. will i miss it? will i be able to adjust to post-exam-nothing-to-care-about kinda life?? i sure would!! tho speaking from experience, ill feel kinda lost for a week or so.. need time to rejuvenate and get back to life i think =) well of cos i have my fyp to bother abt.. and also IH but i duno if i shld still be enthu abt it now tt guat and joyce wun be ard and nobody among us reli talk abt IH anymore.. hmm well guess i shld just wait and see .. anyway its only hols for 6 weeks, minus one week in shanghai and if im not broke by then, another trip to somewhere near..and all the xmas hols, i prob wun have much time to procrastinate or stop and think abt how im gg to spend the hols..

yeah i got nothing more to write cos my life is reli abt nothing but exams now.. sad isn't it.. oh yah did i mention yesterday's paper was a complete disaster for me??? well i think there's gonna be one more disaster come friday.. i think im dumb.. no, actually stupid is the word.....


IF ideal conditions exist..
well frm wad i gathered from Scott (i'm reading too much i guess) and probably even intuitively, those conditions do not exist.. can only hope for the day they do exist.. still, im contented.

nice song~

"My Boo"
There's always that one person
That will always have your heart
You'll never see it coming
Cause you're blinded from the start
Know that you're that one for me
It's clear for everyone to see
Ooh baby ooh you'll always be my boo

I don't know bout cha'll
But I know about us and uh
This is the only way
We know how to rock
I don't know bout cha'll
But I know about us and uh
This is the only way
We know how to rock

Do you remember girl
I was the one who gave you your first kiss
Cause I remember girl
I was the one who said put your lips like this
Even before all the fame and
People screaming your name
Girl I was there when you were my baby

It started when we were younger
You were mine my boo
Now another brother's taking over
But its still in your eyes my boo
Even though we used to argue it's alright
I know we haven't seen each other
In awhile but you will always be my boo

I was in love with you when we were younger
You were mine my boo
And I see it from time to time
I still feel like my boo
And I can see it no matter
How I try to hide my boo
Even though there's another man in my life
You will always be my boo

Yes I remember boy
Cause after we kissed
I could only think about your lips
Yes I remember boy
The moment I knew you were the one
I could spend my life with
Even before all the fame
And people screaming your name
I was there and you were my baby


yeh another mugging day at nie lib.. probably the one of the last few times tt we study there cos the next 3 days are public hols.. yes, lib is gg to be closed but no, doesn't mean that we can stop studying.. hai~ our battle continues, whether a not it is a holiday has got nothing to do with us cos time just wun stop for us to take a break.. wad kinda life is this????? a dog's life, period. yet another uneventful friday nite for me cos im stuck in hall with scott who has put together so many theories abt the financial mkt in his book to torture us.. reli feel like sneaking out for a movie later..princess diary 2..hehe yes a bimbo show but i know it will entertainment me tho i must emphasize tt i am NOT a bimbo =P hehe.. but it all depends on whether i can finish the chap in time anot.. sick.. scott again, i hate him!!..

scary tot of waking up nowadays cos i know tonnes of work awaits me.. and sleeping time seems to have shrunk thru the nites.. oh yeah haven been watching tv or listening to music so my life's quite empty now..reli.. anyway this morning i found a cd and decided to on the player for the first time in the last 3 mths, and it played Sweetest Goodbye.. i was immersed in the song once again.. reminiscing the sweet times.. took me away from the rough patches for awhile..

here's for that special someone~





yummie yum yum.. choc chip cookies frm four leaves brightens up our day at nie lib =P


the one and only person i know who carries a TIN of candy in her bag------ Joyce!!


my collection, a stark contrast compared to joyce's below =P heheh i win!! yay =P


have u ever wondered why do girls always have huge pencil cases?? ans> to house those numerous colourful pens and markers.. but why do they need so many of them?? ans> i wonder myself =P hehehe



okie, the ultimate colouring contest!!

first contestant, joyce tan SIIIIIIIIII (yesh i rem its 'Si' with the 'C' sound, not 'Shi' with the 'H' sound.. ) hui .. hehe scantly highlighted and underlined..

oh yah btw this is the DISGUSTING scott textbook that the 3 of us, and prob a few hundred other acct students, were, and are still, battling with for the past few days.. i must say scott has definitely read enuff of bullshity theories to come up with a book that proposes theories and then attack them left, right, up, down with more theories.. darn.. can't he just make up his mind abt the theories?? no stand of his own...shucks



here's angie's.. her most highlighted page of the book..not too bad but wait till u see mine whaha


heehee im the clear winner!! no surprise tt i used up 7 highlighters so far.. more to come i guess =P hehe


finally we decided to make our way down to nie..


wan wan xue bing.. the whole pack.. ahha no wonder angela's bag is soooo BIG.. heheh


ANGIE the choice, pretending to be studying hard.. all bullshit.. she read 3 pages in an hour.. hehehe.. in depth understanding as she called it


W for wonderful.. realli?? small little meaningful angel


the neglected tom and tippi.. they were much happier at palms..


alrite, this explains why i can nv get any work done..lappie = devil ... my nottie fingers just wun listen.. and in front of lappie is the pile of notes ive been reading for the past 3 days.. an amazing feat of 11 pages read.. i give up on it..


nuthing much.. im stressed tt's all.. and i feel the least bit of motivation.. i've lost it.. hate the way i am now..

yes u got it.. im home again.. and yes, u got it again, im slacking like hell.. hai~ i can nv fight the temptation to go home to slack.. not even during exam period.. shucks.. been slacking since french paper on friday.. and im not even scared or guilty.. tt's the worse way to feel esp since i know i got tonnes of readings to do.. think im getting more and more ill-disciplined.. not good =(
i realized tt whenever im home, im always procrastinating.. waiting for time to come to go back hall, waiting for phone calls, waiting for my tv shows to start.. i can never get any work done.. at all.. home's definitely the best place to do all the bummers' stunts.. NOT GOOD AT ALL...

hai~ 2 more paper to go, reli cant wait till its over.. then again i know when its over i wun really feel the difference.. as they said, the feeling of anticipation is always better than getting it in the end =) haha
alrite.. shall try to study now before i fall asleep =P
~Au Revoir



nice =)

i'm ELATED!!! i must repeat. really really happy right now after reading a very exciting, tot provoking email from a tutor =) yesh, i know ill be strong as long as i stay true to my beliefs and it really doesn't matter wad pple who dun care for me think abt me but this email just served as an extra support for me =)

true enough, to a certain extent im not totally rite but i guess after this whole ordeal, she could see the true colours of some smart (actually after this has happened, im beginning to doubt their intelligence..) and SUPER HARDWORKING dean's listers and totally understand wad i've gone thru.. i feel like justice has been done finally.. and to those freaks (yes, to make me call u a freak in such a serious way means u have seriously crossed the line, i believe i have been pretty patient and magnanimous when it comes to dealing with pple) out there, why dun you guys start to reflect on wad u've done to cause us to end up in such a pathetic state and draw some enlightenment from the email.. and stop thinking tt getting gd grades means u'll be successful in life!!!! you guy's are the true VICTIMS of the educational system cos u lost urself in it...

alrite since it is requested tt this email be treated as private, i shall put up just a little excerpt from it =)

...If the three of you who objected so passionately to the penalty will stop feeling so “righteous”......... and stop thinking that you are being victimized, you will realize that the penalty I levied on you is very minimal....


wad else can i say??? hehehe =) okie i know im being mean but they deserve it..and to the last member of the group, M, thankew for ur unbiased support thruout this issue =)

ohhhh yes anyway took my first paper today, it was alrite i think..but as Rascal Chen complianed, 'it's too easy so very diff to get A '..(duhzzz).. i tihnk tt could be the case..well wadever, As or not its not impt to me ..ahahah as least i know its over!!! heehehe.. yeah, french paper tom haven really revised but i think it shldn't be too hard to pass =) eheheh plus of cos i got a powerful- french- dictiona~ROY downstairs, shld be quite safe =) hehehe

yeap, im still extremely high now hahaah.. okie im really nonsense.. hehe

~Au revior, bonne chance pour l'examen, moi cher amis =P



totally captured the tai-tai wannabes' spirit =)


alrite.. this is really outdated but i cant resist putting it up =PpPpP.. my masterpiece.. the ultimate mr. plasticbag =) hheehehehe... homicide..

the last sunday before exams begin.. doesn't really feel like a sunday actually. sundays are supposed to feel cheery and relax but guess wad i saw this morning when i open the door?? wilfred mugging at blk 60 benches.. yes at 7 a.m. .. and he looked as tho he has mugged thru the whole nite..

hai~ think im not studying enuff cos i fell asleep at ard 1 last nite and even had the atrocity to go home in the afternoon to watch tv.. ab 311 case is out it's still unread cos im too afraid to read it.. im still in the midst of a bitter battle with my textbook.. im not even in the right mood for my revision due to the act of some pple who are so hard up over one percentage point worth of grades..

the kind of characters that can be found in the human race never fail to amaze me.. we may be all skin and flesh on the outside but we can never be sure wat's gg on on the inside.. human beings are complex and unpredictable.. some even illogical and unreasonable.. i shouldn't let this kinda pple affect my revision if not they would have gotten their aim.. well at least that's wat everybody tells me..

alrite, shall put the whole episode behind me and move on.. im sure one day when i look back, ill be smiling at the silly issue and wondering how these pple are coping with their lives in the Machiavellian world..there's a high possibility tt they will survive well at the expense of their conscience.. well all i can say is it's all abt who you wanna be and wat you wanna do in this short life... follow the majority and let the environment shape your lives or stay true to your beliefs and emerge winner of life when your time is up.. for me i choose the latter...

okie study time .. 101% effort today!!!! gambate!!

Au revoir~