im leaving on a jet plane..dunno if ill be back again....

well actually still a good whole 12 hours be4 i leave for shanghai..somehow i always get this pre-vacation blues.. meaning i dun really feel excited abt the trip and i actually would rather stay put.. yeah happens to me all the time but once i reach there i know its gonna be a different thing =) hehe maybe at the back of my mind i just wanna be in both places at the same time heehee greedy eh =P anyway hope it'll be a gd trip blessed with lotsa shopping and of cos i pray for snow (which most likely wun happen.. ) ohhh yes my shopping list is filled with pressies to get.. not my own stuff.. so many im gg to be so broke .. tho of cos my unusually generous mum gave me a few hundred bucks to spend over there.. haha.. so those of u out there expecting presents, just expect a lot of yummy goodies from china kie..whahahahahaha... anyway winter now maybe not much to buy lar (okie..i know.. a desperate attempt at dodging the gifts =P hehe)

yeah got my results today.. was a heart-stopping moment for me as i scroll down the screen.. well i wun say tt i did well but at least was better than last sem, better than wad i expected.. got straight Bs.. even my french.. haha.. okie it is really VERY average but i think my expectations are average as well.. so i feel neutral abt it.. as most of my frens will say 'got job at pwc already wad..so heck it..' hmm quite true lar but not exactly the rite attitude i guess.. nvm let's see wad we can do next sem.. okie so now its kinda left with 3 more modules and my fyp be4 i graduate.. hope life treats me well next sem.. =P alrite tt's all for now... till im back =)

~au revoir!



a bigger carebear =) hehe


carebear shine.. i decided she's Rainbow =) btw she's from vin.. sooo big tt she's taking up half my pillow =)

so we had our final prelim rnd match against hall 4.. din win din lose, we drew.. but the game was so bad tt i felt like we lost in an unfair way (well we did lose on goal diff of 1 so we'll be meeting hall 6 in quarts).. i must say this is the first time in all my years of playing netball(yes, 11 years for goodness sake!) tt the F word came out of me..so naturally.. bad i know im not supposed to esp when an ump myself but c'mon they were really really just too rough.. i mean can u imagine someone sweeping her arms across ur head when u obviously caught the ball like 2 seconds ago???? her reaction cant be tt slow rite???? and mind u she's no softie.. came bulldozing into me like a car tt has its brakes missing.. and this is just one of the many incidents thruout the whole 40 mins on court, the one which i let loose.. ill really be a saint if i din..

yeah players aside, umpiring was, well, hmmm yah she's my fren so ill just say not up to the standard.. okie of cos i remember myself telling my players never ever to blame the umpires for bad games but well this is not personal but i really think they cld have done a better job.. i know trini will second me if she's reading.. but of cos, im sure she has no ill intention on her part to umpire the game the way she did.. i mean how can we blame her when she is the SOLE umpire for all the matches (which in itself is already against the rules).. umpiring since the break of dawn.. its really no joke.. but i just feel tt to deny any team of proper umpiring just becos of the lack of resources on the part of the convening hall is just not RIGHT.. there's seriously something wrong with the system.. we din train and fight so hard just to be deny of justice on court.. yeah .. anyway to all those pushy players out there, we play NETBALL here, we dun wrestle on court alrite! its abt the brains and skills, not the battle of brawns okie!

yah okie i know enough of bitching.. hurt my palm during the game as i was trying to tap a ball away.. got the ball but fingers are gone.. damn painful.. almost cried and smart me called for time.. haha .. actually im not sure if its rite.. i called for time not becos my injury was so serious tt i cant go on.. was cos the ball was in our possession in the goal third then i know ill have to finish up the shot but i dun think i can shoot properly with the pain so i wanted to rest awhile and let the pain subside .. well here comes the moral dillemma..rite or not im not sure.. but i think if im faced with the same prob agian i wld have done the same.. hmmm anyway bad shooting today.. runs weren't impressive as well.. im so losing it.. hate the feeling rite now.. yeah okie dunno if i can mention this on my blog hee.. hope laoren dun read it.. GUAT played today!!! hahaha okie she'll really really kill me if laoren finds out.. anyway thx lots cos i tihnk we realli needed u.. and guess wad, u played much better than a perfectly abled person, im serious.. of cos i wldnt want any of ur 7 screws to fall out of place but it'll really be great if u can join us for our other matches.. i mean can u imagine the defending champs and runner up fall outta the run after prelim rnd??? hahaha and of cos with u ard, chances of huizhen playing for us will be much much higher!!!! heee.. okie my wishful thinkings..

okie one last thing to say abt IHG.. the sports com is either not interested in keeping our titles or simple just incompetent.. totally disorganised, 1 hour be4 the match u can still hear players asking who are we playing today... duhz.. there was no competition strategy to talk abt let alone aims for this year.. suddenly, i feel so proud of wad we did for IHG last yr.. there was never one nite we din talk abt strategies.. pushed for the dates and time to accomodate our players, making so many provisions for the players just so tt we cld all be present for impt matches..still keep my IH diary with me and i can never find a day free from trg or matches.. we started planning so early, got all the players we needed and we had in mind how far we can go.. we impressed everyone with our abilities and everyone started thinking of how to beat hall 12 girls.. tt was our era, the golden age of hall 12.. sadly, never to be repeated.. im glad i was part of all these and to the gang out there, we know we'll nv forget these =)


alrite its reli been hell weeks ever since exams ended.. i guess things are more or less settled and yeah im kinda doing more stuff now, trying to get on with life..
IHG started.. i went for some frenly games and a match yesterday.. against hall 11.. oh well we won but was reli crappy netball ..more like ice-skating due to bad weather..slipped 3 times and bruised my right knee..yeah at least not as bad as the wounds i had last yr.. and just this morning had westend meet.. another crappy game cos the sun was so sorching hot tt no one was reli in the mood to do proper sprints and passes.. i hope we din appear too complacent..won 29-7 i think..
yah ive also kinda started doing some proper readings for fyp..meeting tutor tom so i guess ill spend the rest of my day doing some write up.. hmmm yah and made a date for movie and probably chilling out tonite.. guess all these shld be enough to take my mind off things tt i cant solve.. escapist i know.. but i know im not the only one..

alrite, on a lighter note, not as if i've never heard weird stuff pple say abt me, this is one of the most hilarious one..

(8.45am in the toilet brushing my teeth, jos came with her toothbrush..)
jos: wendy, this is the first time we brush teeth together...
me: yah
jos: its so weird seeing u brush teeth...
me: huh???? why??? ( puzzled look) becos its too unglam????????? (even more puzzled)
jos: YES!!!!!!

haha jos, i think ive done even more unglam things besides BRUSHING MY TEETH..hahahaha.. oh btw i was trying not to gargle so hard cos u were ard... hahaah.. joscelin, stop having weird ideas abt me!!!!!! hehee..



i kinda lost track of time these days.. my days just pass by one after another and i know im not doing the things im supposed to do.. things like IH trgs, fyp, even shopping and movies are missing from my life.. all my days were spent waking up late in the afternoon, getting to the hospital and then back in the wee hours.. im not complaining abt the hospital trips, i must clarify in case i get misunderstood..its a choice tt ive made, a place i wanna be.. yet at the same time, i know there are other parts of my life tt i need to handle.. i know the lifestyle ive chosen is taking a toll on me, my health and my r/ship.. im falling sick so easily nowadays i feel so weak and it certainly doesnt help tt i was sunburnt (almost like 1st degree burn) from IS netball on monday.. and to you, i can only say im sorry.. i know im screwing up ur life and its not fair..so i choose to let go.. forgive me for being the stubborn me, there are just some people and some promises ive made tt i cannot compromise.. i duno wad the future holds and i dun even dare to think abt it.. let's just keep our fingers crossed...