okie i know i look terrible in the pix..i mean wad do u expect when I SLEPT AT 6 AND WOKE UP AT 1030 TO GO DOWN TO THE MATCH??.. PLUS IM NOT OFFERED A RIDE BACK, DUBBY??!!!! haha okie still im glad u got the gold u've always wanted ..shall forgive u this once.. dubby, trini and wendy.. best mates yeah.. and since mingmong thinks he's on a big scandal, he might want to decipher the code in the pix..whahah


dubby tubby.. dun think u shld stand next to meanie mingmong.. erm try sitting down the next time kie =) but worry not , we still love u more than HIM!!!!! =) congrats on the win!!


erm... okie ramdon shot.. whahahaah... ermmmmmmmm okie okie....... (left to right) mr. i-dun-think -i know-u, john and don... okie ill stop it........................... hahaah


erm okie....... cw , here's doing u a favour..haha ..dun drool.. and jos dun be jealous.. at least u know he waved at u .. then again if someone stuck 100 bucks into my pocket ill prob wave too whahahahah..presenting the hall 12 IDOL!!! alrite credits to his vocals =)


okie this was b4 i went oriental.. how drastic.. class gathering the first one i went in 4 yrs i think..whaha .. of cos i was tricked to go there by stupid wein.. glad to see zeming tho =) take care dude!!


okie just to prove the pt tt motorola v3 reli takes better quality pix.. me and my hunny bunny.. of cos the v3 is his.. and noooooooo yaohan dun get tt phone its just too pricey hahah

wooohohohohhoho.. okie wed nite where else to be? good music, great company and of cos booze again.. aiyo think my liver is gg to fail me soon.. but last nite everything was under control.. okie not total control i think but at least there was no puking, no emotions outflow and no letting the cat out of the bag kinda drama..

yeah perhaps the only emotions came from lirong.. silly girl.. ill miss u too babe but we can always hangout rite? and reli being in there means nothing at all (u know wad im talking abt) reli reli..im just lucky tt's all..i put my last dollar tt trini will agree.. it means nothing if we dun have u alongside us girl .. tt's the PPG spirit rite?? so girl, wadever it is, dun give up.. i know things ain't easy on u since NJ but girl u've come so far u just gotta tell urself u'll do the best u can and the most impt thing out of it is the friendship we share, our PPG identity =), and of cos growing up tog learning things the hard way tog and staying by each other side kie =) im glad i have the both of u thru these yrs so lets treasure wad we have kie.. and we will definitely hang out!!! not gonna lose one another liddat kie =) so wipe away ur tears and rock on!!!

last nite was reli a lot of fun yeah.. god damn high everyone was.. ha trini honey u are the best girl.. dun know wad ill do without u.. thx for being my soulmate girl and always there whenever i get high, making sure im in gd hands (ha okie dubby tubby too kie altho last nite ur reaction was damn slowwwwwwww gotta msg u twice can!!! hehe) .. heehee i know i cant be higher than u last nite girl heheehe.. i still rem everything u said last nite girl and worry not cos its gonna be kept safely in me kie =) and girl, ill be here when u need me kie just the way u were there for me =) ..yeah and dubby, i think the 3 of us are the best mates ever!! ha getting all so high tog and gulping down all the shots tog.. ha and dubby, much as i was tipsy, i heard u saying 'everything's on the house kie... on my mama house!!!!' whahaahahaha dude ...nottie boy..heheh but u know, its okie as long as the treat applies only to trini and me!!! *winks* hahaha ...

yup and to yaohan, u are the most onzzzzzz person i ever know..hahaha .. okie i know its gotta be the chicks tt joyce, weiling and i were tempting u with..glad u were enjoying urself eh =) hehehe and i know i gave u guys great entertainment on the cab.. shucks!!! hahaha cabby uncle muz be damn amused by the way i told him not to marry money..hahahahaa.. yah and i know u stayed with me thruout the nite ..silly i was just soundly aslp so u shld have just went back to slp u know.. i hope u dun get the irregular heartbeat again at work kie..=) and wad the hell is the breakfast doing on my desk??? im gg to get real pissed if u dun eat the breakfast okie.. hehehe.. yup thx lots for ur company kie =)

alrite gotta stop here for now cos im gg for PE lec now.. yesh dubby u better start getting ur butt down too =)
~au revoir!



me and my knight in shinning armour.. maucks!!! love ya loads!!


okieokie go ahead and laugh.. im gg the oriental way kie.. duno how long i can take this dark coloured hair tho..fingers crossed..hehe


the two of us with our new hair from H2O..


half the sisters clan


ghostly.. dun rem any part of this photo taking at all!


no recollection of this shot at all.. yesh the fatal nite..ha


me and dubby =)


clarence, dubby's mate


dubby tubby! my fren indeed!!!


erhao> die..they're so gg to force me to eat.. shucks... fengyi> i cant wait to eat... hungryyyyyy


quiyi> lemme see the amt of calories in each order...hefen> my god u mean u did it again?? why do u still believe in the dough theory???


yes yes i know prata is fattening..but i just want it can!!! ARE U TRYING TO MESS ARD WITH ME???!!!!hahahahaha


cw and me!!!!


dunch ya think cw looks better with the tomato in her mouth?? haha fengyi dun try too hard kie haha


on the other side of the table


hefen's b'day part 2 at cafe cartel


my one month old piercing.. wanted it for vvv long finally had the courage to do it =)


okie .. hahaha my frenly neighbourhood volunteer who prefers to remain unnamed in case he gets harrassment from his towering roomie..hehe


yeah i know lappie is ill.. but all she needs is just a lil TLC =)


kiss my arse..


big teddy bear.. doesnt he just reminds u of Shrek?? hope ya having fun in KL dude!


the booze on new yr's day.. outdated random pix =)


plssssssssss can we stop playing indian poker??? fengyi shld i change my card??!!!hahaha


yesh! ARE U TRYING TO MESS ARD WITH MEEEEEEE???!!!!!!


quiyi.... how can u just KO liddat??? ...


i know im drunk .. its 3 fingers ..nooo its 5...okie i give up

here's a recap of the happenings tt took place last week..

tue nite: something tt ive always been picturing in my mind finally came true.. as much as i was prepared, i was hurt.. very.. but as wad i've always taught fai, i took a long deep breathe, swallow hard and held back my tears.. told myself ill be strong and im long over it.. went for a jog with yaohan and NO, not a single drop of the accumulated emotions dropped.. im proud of myself.

wed nite: in the name of san's b'day, the final yrs of blk 60 put aside our heavy workload and disgusting fyp (applies esp to jos of cos.. who needed to extract data from a sample size of 1200!!yesh 1200 no joke =P) to chill at zouk.. also present was our noble yaohan who went back jb after his work to get the mercs out just so tt the girls can have a safe ride home =) cheerios to him!! and mind u, he gotta be at work the next morning!! hahaah yaohan IS the man!!

okie so all in all, tog with fai, gary and gang at blk 59 and our frenly neighbours downstairs, abt 20 of us graced the party and boy it was one hell of fun!! among the extremely high pple were weiling, ...erm weiling.. erm and yesh weiling..hahaah this lil girl was soooo confident of herself when she said 'go have fun girls, i can drink one ill be there to take care of u ' hahaa weiling ah weiling , not only did she came back with the booze up her head but also with the scandals all the way to hefen's door ..but girl, dun worry we STILL love u =) as hefen put it, everybody came back with scandals.. tt's with the exception of me of cos hehehe..

okie i gotta apologise to the bday girl for sneaking to phuture with ryan BUT i gotta make it clear tt im not the only one!!!! hehehee i caught weiling, joyce, jos, calvin, mingcong, kyon etc. at phuture too!!! hehehe well at least we made a pt to go back to mambo to drink the brandy neat tt ur dearrrrrr zilong offered.. tasted like puke can!! haahaa.. ohh yesh, gotta thank ryan aka dubby tubby and his fren, clarence for their nice company.. yeah so the nite ended with me still very sober and very much aware of the truth i found out.. still i refused to drop a single tear..

thurs nite: as celebration part 2, our sisters clan went down to dblo.. our dear qing, as usual wasn't too keen on clubbing cos she's saving for her honeymoon in europe with bob in 4 mths time.. still she made exception and sportingly join in the fun (hey see i said gd stuff abt u okie!! haha)... all was gg well till .. yah okie.. i had a bit too much .. the most terrible nite for me ever.. could'nt hold back anymore of the emotions and let them all out .. luckily for me, i had wei ard to make sure tt im alrite but she gave me a shock of my life when she slammed the guy's booze on the grd and threw candies at him..ahahaha.. my god.. and this she claimed was to protect me!! ahah and no thx to the bruises she inflicted on my arm .. yeah i know she loves me and i just wanna thank her and my frenly neighbours for taking care of me thruout the nite.. and of cos those tt came to make sure im alrite..u know who u are.. thx

okie but of cos the highlight of the nite is none other than the bday girl herself.. hahaha okie i know she'll kill me if i describe this in details , so ill just keep it short.. drunkard san ended up in hospital after creating havoc on the cab..hahahaahah erm okie dun ask questions kie =)

well if u think tt's the end of the story, its far from over..

fri nite: went to jb to find my hunny bunny.. of cos i was half expecting chillings from him for not picking up his calls and for almost make him wanna smuggle himself out (oh yes u heard this idiot lost his passport..haha okie i think when i was half drunk i told the girls im too scared to ans his calls).. but fortunately, joyce, willy, wei and her fren went in with me so he kinda din have the rite opportunity to scold me hahaahah.. yah lar i know u wont scold lar kie =) hehe.. yup and as if i din puke enuff the nite b4, we ended up at n.y. club .. but no overdose of booze for me =) see im good.. i kinda made a resolution against booze while i had a hard time puking the other nite u see.. hehe.. yeah and there were no ugly scenes tt nite .. no crowd at the club at all and i gotta witness the legendary aussie shuffles eh..heheeh pretty cool =)

okie well i think i've done enuff nonsense for the past 2 mths.. for the first time,. i had a peaceful weekend... wanna give a big hug to each and everyone who was there for me.. its all over now and i know i ain't need no one to tide me over this..at least i know im stronger than u..


MONDAY BLUES BROUGHT TO NEW HEIGHTS..

alrite.. i know im a disappointment.. the most disapointing person i myself ever know.. sorry love.. im sorry .. i know i've ruined all the effort u've put into making me happy.. my sincere apologies to u and those who care.. and also to myself.. i totally condemned myself.. god knows why my mood dipped to its lowest since new year's day from a recent high just 36 hrs ago.. i was ecstatic on sat and devastated on monday.. waddehell am i doing???... hai~ think i need to stop indulging in short term happiness only to wake up feeling knocked back to earth again..stop doing things tt will only make me more upset and stop asking questions tt i already have answers to.. i need to feel real.. feel alive.. feel the truth..feel the way i am actually feeling... stop wheedling myself into feeling wad im not.. i need to face the music..the reality.. and get out of this whole emotional torment..


i can sooooooooooooo faint rite now at this very moment... yeshhhhhhhhhhhhhh so so so faint rite now as i sit on edd's dodgy chair in his pigsty... adrenalin rush.. dear weiling and laoren i'm sorry i think the war is not ending ..whahahaahahahahah...yeah the prolonged war since last nite hehehee... im so so so excited but i cant tell why, at least not on my blog just in case ..erm..yah someone's reading it whahahahahaahaha.. okieokie wadever it is i just wanna say LIFE IS GOOD!!!! LIVING IS COOL!! WHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHA... at least for now ..hehehee...


got this from a fren:
"no one means all he says, and yet very few say all they mean, for words are slippery and thoughts are vicious"

meaningful i find.. its not difficult to prove the statement. just think abt the broken promises and the regrets tt come when we missed the chance to say wad we reli mean..

a fren once said to me, wad doesn't kill you only makes u stronger.. im stronger now i guess..cos im not dead.. yes im stronger already.. thanks for making me stronger.




hi all... alrite im back..at last.. yes, ryan, trini, jia, and whoever was checking out my blog the past few weeks and urging me to do something abt it, im back =) thx for making an effort to find out how im doing eh =) in a nutshell, life's been pretty tough on me the last few weeks , among all the things tt went wrong, lappie died..finally i had to lose all my docs and pix on the comp and of cos it was revived by none other than my bestest buddy who was also there for me when some other parts of my life died too.. as much as i hate u, i love u, edd..hehee... its a love-hate kinda relationship i guess..heheheehe.. yup, finally made up my mind to stop thinking abt unhappy stuff and take things easier ( shall adopt trini's new yr resolution =P)... in short, just get my life on track again =) brand new yr, final sem in sch, boy am i so gg to have a helluva gd time (and of cos some decent effort to get better grades hehe)..

alrite, shall do a summary

Updates:

1. i had a bad xmas..tho the party was great..
2. the booze-ey new yr party was good fun tho i ended up having an unexpected emotional outbreak and puked my gut out..yeah still it was fun =)
   
3. sch reopened..and i bought all my textbooks =) and of cos attended all my lessons the first week..hehee..
   
4. i skipped the first lesson today haha..
   
5. im single
6. edd has unwillingly renewed his vow to marry me if im still single when we turn 40. and yaohan volunteered to free edd of his unfortunate burden when we turn 50.. ha..
7. my room has nv been cleaner and neater with the help of my friendly neighbourhood volunteer who prefers to be unnamed =) ..and of cos more well-equipped with vincent's tv =) thx dude!
8. ive got a new hangout --- jb
9. ive stupidly agreed to qing's weird idea of double dating.. which turns out pretty fine actually =)
10. i started conversing normally with someone whom i dun previously =)
11. i found out tt jos has reli reli cranky ideas.. abt everything
    
12. im starting to feel a little worried abt my fyp..heheeh..
    
13. IHG is almost over for me
14. im still pretty much the same person i was .. i hope =)

okie tt's all for today i think =) hope its not too disappointing eh =)




embracing 2005 =)


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cheers to 2005