this is the second time this week i changed my blogskin. the first time rnd was the bright, orangy skin which i tot cld satisfy some readers (cos i received several complaints tt my blog looked too gloomy for my own good.. ah well..) with delta goodrem's 'lost without you' which happened to be one of edd's fav song and i kinda like it too... but seems like the more i listen to it, the moodier i became... also, dubby complained tt he cant read cos the words are too small!! (dubby, u sure not?? u need new specs dude!! hehehehe ) and the music is too loud (which i have to admit but i cant do anything bout it).

so anyway, after surfing for a gd 2 hours, i found the skin tt im most satisfied with to date and decided to put in one of my all time fav song to go along with it.. really really nice song.. (btw jamie yeo wanted to play this song at her wedding!!! gd idea eh??!! ) yup, and dubby, for you, i especially set the font size to 12 instead of the usual 10 hahaahah so u better dun complain kie.. and as for the vol, adjust ur speakers kie..haha.. and u better say u like my new skin and song!!!! and yah btw, hope ur commando trgs dun kill u by the end of the 2 weeks..hehee..

as i was telling edd, i had a reli weird dream last nite.. strange but i actually felt happy abt it.. dreamt tt i was happily attached to this person (okie go ahead and laugh..and NO, im not into him and NO, im not thinking or hoping tt something will happen..and NO, i haven been thinking abt it AT ALL!!!..looking at the situation now, its like the last thing tt will ever happen!! its reli reli just a dreammmmmm), cant rem the details but it felt so real, so much so tt when i woke up, i almost forgot abt the issues between us and wanted to tell him abt the dream for a good laugh but nah.... anyway, tot abt it and i think i reli wldnt mind being frens again.. yeah..but i guess wadever happened in the dream stays in the dream =)

okie i realized my blog has been rather depressing lately (tt's y im gg to change the song =P ) and has sparked off a series of out-of-concern smses/calls checking to see if im still alive.. but worry not frens, ive somehow spun outta the dark days.. hahah.. now i cant be more sure tt its pms at work.. on reflection, i figured tt dwelling on a bad day only serves to bring down the rest of the days coming.. so after 3 days of isolation, i decided to step outta my shell and embrace the day with a whole new attitude and resolution ie. study hard and be happy and god will take care of the rest..

oh yeh b4 i start studying today, i tot ill surf ard to see if there're any interesting sites and i happened to chance upon an old fren's blog. (btw, is it rite to read without the owner's knowledge?? moral diemma..but anyhow, since its a public blog ill take it as im just another member of the public..who knows she might be reading mine too ?? haha..oh in any case if u are, its me here saying 'HI')

read abt how she's happily in love and making big plans with her hubby-to-be, even got an apartment already, mind u, she's only 22 like me =) felt reli happy for her but somehow, something is holding me back from a direct contact with her to congratulate her. yrs ago, we were like the best of frens, perpetually hanging out everyday after sch, did a lot of silly stuff tog, had a lot of wonderful memories and even talked abt how we'll still stick ard when we grow up and become taitais and mj and shop and have kids and our kids have their kids.. somehow, everything came to a full-stop when we moved on to the next phase of our lives. tho very much in the same compound, we nv ever meet except for the first few common lectures we had in yr 1.. attempts to keep in touch were nv reciprocated and things made worst when things over at nus side turned sour.. so just like tt, we no longer exist in one another's lives. initially, i was pretty upset abt it but after a while i kinda grew to accept tt forever dun ever exist, its inevitable tt pple change and choose their own paths in their own rights..and so i tot she din matter to me anymore until when i read tt she refers to me as 'a training mate' and i looked up and realized tt i still have so many of our old photos on my desk and a sweet note from her dated 4 yrs ago still rest prominently on the board. she was still very much a very good fren to me, not just my 'training mate' i guess..


fai finally came with his 'very wendy' candle holder to counter my pms-y mood.. thx i love it but still feeling pms-y =(

its pms time again i think..

1. unbelievably depressed
2. extremely ill- disciplined (feel like sleeping already tho i know nuts abt interest rate swaps and the quiz is on at 830am tom)
3. feel exceptionally bitter abt certain things tt actually dun matter to me at all already..
4. surfing the net adds on to my depression (god knows why..)
5. do not wish to converse with anyone on msn but wanna know who's online..
6. hoping tt my slitch is not yc-ing and will call this very second (tho it's only been 3 hrs ago tt i spoke to him)
7. wondering when fai appear at my door so tt i have someone to shout out to..
8. unbearable urge (tho without ability) to turn get into a time machine to turn back time to 14 hours ago
9. strong desire to cast a bad luck spell on certain pple (not feeling guilty abt the tot)
10. been at the same page of notes for the last hour (the irritating jargons just dun register in my head)
11. wondering wads wrong with myself

i feel like crying out loud but there's nothing reason enuff to do so.. do i really need a reason to cry?? or maybe pms will be enough to justify...


its tt time of the year again.. CLEO's EB.. after much consideration (a tie between him and brendan lim) Tseng Wun Hsiung emerged my EB 2005!!! hahaha... notice the similarites again.. no wonder guessing my fav EB was no kick for edd.. bingo on first try..haha see lar how not to be my slitch =PpPpPp


my other fantasy... hahaa.... notice the stark resemblance between leslie and lee hom .. haha


the latest product of my irresponsible shopping habits =P.... watched the mtv of Forever Love the other day and im soooooooo hooked on him (not the song btw).. the song is not too bad and the rest of the songs..ermmm .. haha.. i dun reli care anyway.. but he is soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo irresistable!!!! he's the only reason i bought the cd.. fits the exact bill of my idea of the PERFECT ONE =)hahah .. yeah i know i know .. in my dreams... whahahaha..


this week passed reli quickly, another week wasted.. nothing constructive done.. hai~ ita almost time i get down to do some serious studying.. yeah, anyway this smiley is esp for fai to reward him for his great company =) hehe thx loads dude!! we must FLYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY kie!!! hehe hope the temple visit works! =P


ewwwwwwww... see im not wrong to call u a sista..whahaha.. fai, my most onz bud =)

21 years of oxygen consumption has taught me one very impt lesson:

never try too hard to make things happen the ideal way (no matter how much u hope for it to happen) if u dun wanna be the DEVIL'S ADVOCATE...

so i give up.

the stress level on my shoulders plummeted.. the heavy burden (which grew in weight expotentially in recent weeks) tt i have been carrying on my back for the past one and a half semester is finally lifted off my weak shoulders. FYP!! u've met ur nemesis- the deadline.. hahaa dunch u dream of resting comfortably on my shoulders forever!!! whahaahahah i finally ditched u!!! alrite, not exactly over yet cos the fussing man still complains abt our bibio.. but yeah i consider it job done =) ill like to extend my sincere gratitude to my deserving groupmates for gg thru this trying period with me. a big *hug* to joyce and serene!! its been reli nice working tog with u. u guys are the best!!

yup, so to reward myself, i accepted a kind movie date offer. caught HITCH with fai this afternoon and it wad HILARIOUS!! whahaa sure can use some humor and laughter after this highly demanding work week.. done with 304, 306 and FYP, i think im yet another step nearer to graduation *sigh* ... anyway, i love the witty dialogues in the show and the funny logics will smith came up with abt how to 'create opportunities'.. haha nice~

insipred by our very own fyp, joyce and i decided to take it one step further. we decided to plan for some short shopping trips to HK and Taiwan. i reli hope it works out cos my idea of backpacking in europe seems to have little chance to materialize since frens ard me seems to be apathetic abt it. so i decided work on the idea of a series of short shopping (yesh!! shopping whaahahhaa) trips to HK, Taiwan, and hopefully Japan.. maybe also pay a long-dued visit to linda, garry and wein in aust. yah fai also brought up the idea of a road trip from SG to KL then to thailand then to cambodia.. this is so exciting tho im quite turned off when he said i gotta be prepared to be dirty and smelly.. i mean ewwwwwwwwwww .. but still i know if i dun do it now i prob wun do it for the remaining time of my life, so im all game for it! anyway considering the financial health of my bank acct now, i think by the end of my grad trips, ill be heavily indebted to my dad haahaaa... watever it is, i cant wait!!

oh yeah did i mention my wallet got stolen on thursday after my taxing presentation and fyp meeting???? i mean how unlucky can i get?? of all days it must happen on the most stressful day of the sem.. okie i know its partly my fault too cos i left my bag outside the toilet cubicle when i went to change for floorball but i DUN expect any decent uni students, in fact, anyone for that matter, to steal.. wad is the point of acquiring so much knowledge when all it does is to erode ur moral??? oh yah if u're thinking it's too much to expect of pple not to steal, there's this village in india tt has not seen ANY crimes, be it theft, murders, wadsoever, for the past DECADE!!!! so it's not impossible yeah! anyway the biggest joke is tt there's not a single cent in my wallet cos i was planning to withdraw $$ after i changed!! so within 24 hours, she delivered my wallet to my letterbox with all my cards all intact. okie at least she's not beyond hope..haha.. and yah she din manage to take my phone cos i took it with me to call cw while changing.. so in a way cw, you saved my phone!!!!! hahahah

alrite im getting sleepy..

~Life is not about the number of breathe u take, it's the moments it takes ur breathe away~
H.I.T.C.H


came across this pix on the net and it reminded me of someone who once told me tt im the kinda girl who will draw hearts when im in love... indeed.. guess tt's the very reason why im not a big fan of heart-shaped, cheesy stuff nowadays ..haha..

to the two of you....

two good friends
two broken hearts
two who loved
two who were loved
now, one puts on the mask
the other puts on the armour

friends become lovers and lovers become strangers...

when will we ever learn to C H E R I S H?

If you don't have it in ur heart, it doesn't matter what you've got in ur head.
Don't let a problem to be solved become more important than a person to be loved.

so guys, i guess there's only so much i can say.. follow ur hearts and hold on to ur beliefs.. just be sure and be strong...
time will heal.......... this i can be sure =)

cant believe tt at this very moment, certain pple still affect me this way.. im just upset and disappointed. Very. and then i began thinking abt the way things were and the things tt were told to me. pretty much turns out to be nothing more than pretentious affections and beautiful lies. the intricacy of interactions between hearts and minds is something ill never learn enough. sometimes changes come at such a swift speed tt took the wind out of my sail. i was bowled over and i still am. bewildered by the way things are rite now. i know im long over it, so much so tt i can laugh at my own inanity and even doubt my own feelings ... but still i tot things could be a little more congenial. a little more than this.. well i guess its gotta be a two-way ticket. and judging by aloofness i was slapped with just now, i give up. and this shall be it.

first of all, i wanna say a big

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!

to two of my best frens, trini and qing whose bdays fall on the same day (even tho they duno each other)..ehhee.. i must have some luck with pple born on 1st march eh =) hehehe

trini, my powerpuff buddy,
first of all wanna tell u, u are a GREAT Powerpuff Girl!! love u to the bits.. and im soooooooooo going to miss u when im gone next yr... gonna miss doing ball drills with u, shooting tog, running (like we ever whahaha), playing matches... shopping!!! gossiping (oh gosh this is gg to hurt alot hehe), partying (and this hurts even more!)!!! my best clubbing mate ever.. love it when we get all so high and start telling secrets whahahaha.. well we all know its all 'in the pocket' hehehehee.. and tho they love to call u fatty, u are nowhere near fat at all!!! trust me.. they're just too blind to see ur beauty.. either tt or maybe just cos we are 2 of the same kind heheheee.. anyway, fat or not, i still love u and u've been such a nice fren to me =) i wish for all good things to come ur way and bad things to shoo off far far away... in ur first step into the adults' world, leaving adolescence behind, i gotta warn u that its NOTHING so great..haah life still goes on and its mostly shit half the time.. so dun get too disappointed and just make the best outta it.. hehe.. on a more serious note, girl, i am glad we are frens, something tt ill look back when im 70, old , fat and grouchy and still brings a smile to my face =)

qing, my long time sista,
i reli cant rem how many birthdays, xmas, new years or wadever occassions we've celebrated tog.. when we were little, we showered the birthday girl with not just our little sweet pressies but also flour, water, eggs, and sometimes even the cake.. the most memorable one must be the time when u saved us from the coach's lecturing.. after we played badly against duno which sch in west zone prelims.. yea we got let off the hook cos it was ur birthday.. and also the coach's bf's of cos.. heehee.. then as we grew up, we started to indulge in fine dining and expensive gifts..nowadays, we even choose our own presents and better still, give vouchers instead of sincerely chosen presents... which wasnt even half as fun as it was in the old days... guess its just a sign of growing up eh =) well but still no matter how we celebrate birthdays these days, we all know tt we will be there for each other no matter wad happens.. at the end of the day, we can still run back to the sistas who love us and will be there, whether we are drunk, puking ( erm san, no pun intended hehehe), outta love, depressed, caught in situations, making critical decisions or even having suicidal intents (haha okie im being mean..).. hehee.. we all know we will be frens forever, frens who will always be there.. when i count my blessings, i always count u twice =) love ya loads!!

p.s. happy birthday to belle too .. if u are reading =)

here's to all those i love
~Why Are They Friends~
becos ... they smile
becos ... they understand just by looking into ur eyes
becos ... they finish ur sentences and know wad you like
becos ... they know u better than u know urself
becos ... with them u aren't afraid to be urself
becos ... u can say something stupid and expose ur deepest secrets to them
becos ... everything u do together becomes a memory
becos ... u dun need to do something special to have fun... fun just happens
becos ... u dun need to explain anything... they just know
becos ... they tell u the truth, no matter how much u'd rather not hear it
becos ... they would do anything for u and get u outta trouble
becos ... they make u laugh harder than anyone
beocs ... they are not afraid to put themselves on the line for u
becos ... u can trust them
becos ... they believe in ur dreams, no matter how silly they may seem
becos ... they dry ur tears
becos ... u are gd enough when u are with them
becos ... they love u for who u really are

~kirsty glassen