cant believe tt at this very moment, certain pple still affect me this way.. im just upset and disappointed. Very. and then i began thinking abt the way things were and the things tt were told to me. pretty much turns out to be nothing more than pretentious affections and beautiful lies. the intricacy of interactions between hearts and minds is something ill never learn enough. sometimes changes come at such a swift speed tt took the wind out of my sail. i was bowled over and i still am. bewildered by the way things are rite now. i know im long over it, so much so tt i can laugh at my own inanity and even doubt my own feelings ... but still i tot things could be a little more congenial. a little more than this.. well i guess its gotta be a two-way ticket. and judging by aloofness i was slapped with just now, i give up. and this shall be it.