First day of work tom and i'm feeling emotionless. maybe just cos i duno wad to expect from it. come to think of it, act i do feel something. i act felt a lil depressed for the past 2 days.. its like no more late nites, no more own time own target kinda lifestyle, no more swimming/ suntanning whenever i feel like it, no more teevee-ing, no more hanging out as and when i like, no more afternoon naps, no more sleeping all the way till the afternoon, no more ktv-ing till the wee hours, no more aimless surfing, no more long msn chatting, no more shopping in the empty afternoon town, no more 'i have nothing to worry abt attitude', basically no more taitai lifestyle... it's reli sad.. i feel a lil lost actually.. maybe i've grown too accustomed to this kind life. its as gd as depriving a drug addict of his daily dose. anyway wadever it is tt i am gg to lose when i start working, i just hope i dun lose the bond with pple close to my heart now tt i'll have lesser time to spend with them and tt the demands of my job do not kill my passion for my lil trinklets biz.. i pray and hope tt i'll have enough strength to stay true to my beliefs and not let the dog eat dog world out there corrupt and consume my tots and actions. i know this job will teach me a lot of things. whether it is in the technical aspect or it is abt life itself, i just hope it makes me a better person and not otherwise =)

anyway did some last min shopping today with wei and cuiyi.. was pretty rush cos i've got like a whole list of things to get of which i only managed to get abt half of them.. yeah im just such a last min person! hehe well at least im happy with my purchases and hopefully tom's shopping after work with cuz fiona wld be even better =)

just now as i was on the cab back home, some old memories, abt 18 mths old to be exact, came to my mind. i was at the exact same place and on the exact same road. so i tot i'll called the exact same person since im feeling a lil down cos i gotta start work tom but the situation was entirely different. din reli know wad to say, was act just expecting some words of comfort but yea.... it din reli come...

anyway, yesterday was a disaster which i dun reli wanna elaborate now.. haha bottomline is yes, i dozed off after blogging at 4 am and failed to wake up in time. of cos, my trustworthy alarm clock plus chauffeur failed me too!!! ONE DEMERIT PT for him!!!!!! (well but he's forgiven cos he gave me a nice sushi treat and became my slave for the day, so tt i can play mahjong till 3 am and get a lift home heheeh) bleahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh hehe.. okie, once again, i sincerely apologise to my dearest teamates. this is the 2nd time in my life im late for matches and i promise to try my best to make it the last!!! haahhaaa..

talking abt playing mahjong, last nite was joce's advance bday celebration at her place. quite a few of us turned up and kaishuin the sweetie got her not 1 but 2 yummy cheesecakes from Don (s'pposed to be v gd i think).. hehe and after tt we just mahjong-ed the whole time. was so so so upset when joce 'hu' with 1 'tai' when i cld act 'zi muo' 5 'tai' rite after her turn!!!!! its not everytime lousy mj-ers like me get 5 'tais'u knowwwwwwwwwwwwww and it is a 'zi muo'!!!!! hai~ maybe tt's why the birthday girl is always the queen of the nite! hehe (oh did i mention one of my fren struck 4D on my birthday?? hehe he/she must have brush off some of my gd luck tt nite hehehe.. okie start guessing who..haha) alrite, enough of these nonsense, i better go to bed now. dun wanna be late for my first day!!

*pls let my first day go smoothly*