For the past few nights, I've been having the same thoughts on my mind before I fall asleep at night. I'm a little outta sorts I guess. I thought I've already decided to abandon the entire idea just a few months back but why am I thinking about it again now???

I've to say that learning about certain happenings and being on the receiving end of certain treatment all over again are most possibly the reasons why I think about the same person/thing these few nights. I'm shock at how the intensity has grown since it started about.... say 4-5 months ago... And what's more shocking is that I could so totally put L outta the picture. Like he doesn't exist at all. Like I'm all ready for a brand new beginning. I wonder if there's ever a single moment that this feeling is mutual. I doubt so tho... this is the part that gets me down I guess... To be honest, I don't think there's any chance that this would work out... I don't even know if I really want anything to work out! But the thought of it just makes me happy...

So what really are you thinking about right now? I really hope to find out someday....hopefully soon?? Hmmm.. or maybe not... this could just be an infatuation after all..... Alright, I just don't know what I want. Period.