In just a single day, I went from upset to happy and then ended off the night upset again. This rollercoaster ride seems to be never ending... I'm still trying to convince myself to enjoy the moment while it last and go with the flow........

Don't think too far, don't think too much, do what I like and makes me feel happy.
I think I sound like an irresponsible brat already.

Yes, I must admit that there're times I've acted this way.
When I was young, I'll think to myself, go to this place first then call Mummy and tell her I'm there already, so she can't say NO... I'll also make my nanny buy me new toys and keep them from Mum until a couple of months later when she spot my not so new toys and attempt to scold me abt them, I'll tell her 'Mama bought them for me loooonnnnnnnnggggggggggggg looooooooooonnnnnnnnnngggggggg time ago...'. that saved me the scoldings all the time...

But u see, I've always have a plan at the back of my mind. I know I can't be just doing what I like, I must also like what I do at the end of the day...

Now, I don't really have a plan. In fact, I think I might even do the craziest thing I can think of... I think I'm losing my religion..........

Okie, I dunno how this is going to work, but I'm gg to try to enjoy every single moment of this. Bittersweet.