Strange as it may sound, sometimes, the closer you try to stand next to a person, the more magnified you'll find the distance between you. The more you try to understand a person, the more you'll discover that certain things just run too deep for you to comprehend.

Maybe it's the way we've led our lives thus far, maybe it's the different people we've met in life, or maybe it's the different circumstances and tests we've dealt with in life. All these invariably shaped our thinking, beliefs and habits.

So what makes a person who he really is? Take away the things that we have or not have in life, the things we do or not do, the surroundings, the circumstances, the experiences we've been through. What does that make of us? Will we still be who we are, will we be different? Will we still stand by the beliefs we've been holding on so tight? Will we even have beliefs??? Will we, really, ever know????

Is it your surroundings that define you or are you the one who decides how your surroundings should interact with you?

I've always believed that deep down, there's a true self in everyone. Some people choose to be someone else, some people choose to be comfortable in their own skin. Ah Eu once said to me, '...people CHOOSE who they want to be and how they make their choices, depending on who, and what they're dealing with....blah blah blah'

I thought about it. What's Ah Eu's point when he said these? Does he mean that it is a particular situation, a person that you're dealing with, or a particular phase in your life that decides how you'd act, think, behave, response, and in turn, judge others? This seems like a daunting task to me because there are so many people and situation we deal with everyday, so if we put on a different front every time we meet a different person, wouldn't it be so tiring? I don't know how this works but for me, I choose an easier way of just being myself and have a more consistent behavior. Maybe my tone and choice of words and language may differ when I speak to different people and deal with different issues, but fundamentally, my decision making process is still the same and therefore my actions are guided by the same set of principles.

So for me, things are relatively simpler. I just like being myself. And I also believe in judging a person by taking away his surroundings and looking at his bare naked soul...I believe I know how a person is inside. Sometimes, it's the look in his eyes, the little things that he carelessly let slip, and his little gestures towards the people around him that helps me judge him. It's never about the big and obvious, really... they fade too easily.... Ultimately, its really just a feeling I can't quite explain... I don't have a list of reasons why I choose to treat a particular person in a special way, do the things that I do for him, and feel the way I feel for him... So if u really need to know a reason, I just feel wonderful when I'm with you. You make me do things that I never thought I could, u make me a better person... and I hope I can bring out the best in you and make u feel the way I feel when I'm with u... Are these reason enough???