Becos he treats us so differently.
Why? Do I not deserve? I asked.
Someone said "it's not that you don't deserve, you just deserve something better..."
Another said "you've forgotten that YOU are the prize. You decide who deserves..."

It's really sweet of them. Maybe I am the prize. Just maybe.
But what if I'm just the prize that nobody really cares to own? Can I have a prize too?

Often I ask myself, have I not done enough? Is there anything else I can do?
What is it that made him love them the way he did? Why can't he do the same for me?

This time round, I concede defeat. I've done the best I cld.
It's easier to think that it's his loss, not mine. But I'm just not someone who takes the easy way out...

Love cannot be compelled. I'm truly beaten by love.
Again.

I pray to God, to void all the capacity in me to love.
Make my life easier, I begged.